Your not a Pharmacist??

There has been many times where people would call me to want to interview me for Pharmacist positions. Its flattering and then also its kinda disappointing. First I think that I've impressed them with my quality of work I've chose to do. Then it goes to letting them know that I don't have a pharmacist license. Every time I say that part though they ask why not? Then I don't I really have an answer for them.

When I started in Pharmacy, I absolutely loved everything about it. I kept researching all areas of it to get all the background that I do have in it. I did all that, because I never thought the opportunity for me to actually focus on schooling as tough as Pharmacy school would ever be in the cards. 

My life was dealt to me when I was 18. I became a mom that young and I met my husband, I fell in love with almost two years before that. Our family is now the size of 7. I have five amazing kiddos. My husband is a "blue collar worker" whom I love and respect. I chose love and family before I did anything for me. They are my purpose and will always be first. I've been slowly working on my degree while trying to find opportunities to work around our schedules. Things have been really great and then there are those times when its really hard. It just happens that way. Dedication of hours to study, let alone be in a classroom, plus pay the bills and tuition while trying to figure out new tires for a car and private school for my Autistic daughter doesn't seem fair. So I pushed it aside and tried to find a degree that I could make work....while pretty much just wasting my intelligence. 

I'm not trying to sound conceited or into myself. Please don't think that. When I look in the mirror and self reflect, I get down on myself because I know I could be more and offer more then what I do. I don't think I can make something work so I make excuses for it or say nothing at all. 

I did though finally get the support I've needed for a long time.  I've just changed my major yet again (with 5 classes left to graduate with) to a major that will take me to the Air force Commissioned Officer Academy where I will then continue the path to my Doctorate of Pharmacy. Best damn schooling/training/leadership ability out there. I will have the opportunity to give to myself and give to my family all at the same time. This next year and half will be hard....hell even the military part will be even worse. There is though one thing for sure that will be happening and that will be my dream. I don't want to settle for something when I know I'm capable of more. 

So take this as a personal update. ;)