Its one of those times of the year that make ones day rather difficult. Some people never have recovered mentally from the pain that they had personally experienced. Life events scar us or brand us to be the people that we are today. Medications sometimes alter these scars or help them be more manageable. They can also can make people worse.
Don't get me wrong, I'm a very strong advocate for medication use. I'm also even more now, a believer of misdiagnosed or misuse of certain medications. Anti-psychotics and anxiety types of medications are available for those that need them. The rate of more people on these forms of medications is a lot higher now, then it was before September 11th, 2001. We all or at least we all should have been effected by that day. I lost a fellow colleague who was on the plane that hit tower two with his 3 year old daughter. September 11th of 2000 is also my first born child's birthday. Her first birthday was devastation. My pain vs. someone else's is not going to be greater or less then of someone else. Everyone deals with things in different ways, the same goes for medications. Everyone reacts to them different.
So, we have higher user list of anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medications. I was actually just recently dealing with my own issues under these medications. I personally or should I say finally and luckily realized that these medications were making me well....a freaking nutcase for one. Through my assistance with my knowledge of these forms of medications and the collaboration of my fellow current colleagues, I am officially off of every medication my doctor put me on that put in a greater or should I say even worse state of mind then I originally was to begin with. The thing is, I'm telling this because back in 2001, I was on these medications before. They helped me then. I was on them for little less then a year and then was weaned off them and was able to go on about my life. This time around, the same medications didn't work. They made me worse. Now, I'm better off of any form of medicine then I was even before I started this last medication round.
So here I had the same medications that actually made me a better person once. Got my focus back, stopped the panic attacks, made me focus and be ME again. This time around, they didn't. Unfortunately the damage has been done as in regards to the person i became on these medications, but I'm off of them now and feel better then I ever did before. There isn't always a right answer to how to manage depression and anxiety. Sometimes you just need time to heal or to learn how to manage things. Then there are times you need a Xanax because your hyperventilating because your scared for some reason. The biggest thing is, you need to know your body. You need to know what is okay and what is your breaking point. Don't be afraid to say to your doctor, "Hey...I haven't been myself lately. I've been really stressed. What can I do different? Is this depression?" Don't go all crazy and hit up WebMD because you want to self diagnose or anything like that. Sometimes you just need to feel that sadness. You need to feel certain things to just know that its still you. A pill doesn't fix everything. It doesn't. But it can lead you on your way too.
Where do go from here? Well...if your at the point that you can't manage certain things anymore, talk to your doctor. If they prescribe something, educate yourself on what your on. It takes awhile for the effects at least for anti-depressants to kick in and work right, but that even applies to working wrong too.
In closing, just take a moment to self reflect every now and again. Remember moments, good and bad. Feeling emotions is okay to feel. Don't be scared of it. Take a moment to look at the sky. See an airplane in the air. Remember how there were days that there was once nothing in the air and the reason for it. Remember the people that lost their lives that day. Remember the ones that went in to help and especially the ones that never came out. Remember the people that took over a plane to take down terrorists even though they still lost their lives but saved probably hundreds of others. Tragedy makes, breaks, and conforms you. You need help, get it. But don't depend on numbing yourself because that isn't what is going to happen.
Don't get me wrong, I'm a very strong advocate for medication use. I'm also even more now, a believer of misdiagnosed or misuse of certain medications. Anti-psychotics and anxiety types of medications are available for those that need them. The rate of more people on these forms of medications is a lot higher now, then it was before September 11th, 2001. We all or at least we all should have been effected by that day. I lost a fellow colleague who was on the plane that hit tower two with his 3 year old daughter. September 11th of 2000 is also my first born child's birthday. Her first birthday was devastation. My pain vs. someone else's is not going to be greater or less then of someone else. Everyone deals with things in different ways, the same goes for medications. Everyone reacts to them different.
So, we have higher user list of anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medications. I was actually just recently dealing with my own issues under these medications. I personally or should I say finally and luckily realized that these medications were making me well....a freaking nutcase for one. Through my assistance with my knowledge of these forms of medications and the collaboration of my fellow current colleagues, I am officially off of every medication my doctor put me on that put in a greater or should I say even worse state of mind then I originally was to begin with. The thing is, I'm telling this because back in 2001, I was on these medications before. They helped me then. I was on them for little less then a year and then was weaned off them and was able to go on about my life. This time around, the same medications didn't work. They made me worse. Now, I'm better off of any form of medicine then I was even before I started this last medication round.
So here I had the same medications that actually made me a better person once. Got my focus back, stopped the panic attacks, made me focus and be ME again. This time around, they didn't. Unfortunately the damage has been done as in regards to the person i became on these medications, but I'm off of them now and feel better then I ever did before. There isn't always a right answer to how to manage depression and anxiety. Sometimes you just need time to heal or to learn how to manage things. Then there are times you need a Xanax because your hyperventilating because your scared for some reason. The biggest thing is, you need to know your body. You need to know what is okay and what is your breaking point. Don't be afraid to say to your doctor, "Hey...I haven't been myself lately. I've been really stressed. What can I do different? Is this depression?" Don't go all crazy and hit up WebMD because you want to self diagnose or anything like that. Sometimes you just need to feel that sadness. You need to feel certain things to just know that its still you. A pill doesn't fix everything. It doesn't. But it can lead you on your way too.
Where do go from here? Well...if your at the point that you can't manage certain things anymore, talk to your doctor. If they prescribe something, educate yourself on what your on. It takes awhile for the effects at least for anti-depressants to kick in and work right, but that even applies to working wrong too.
In closing, just take a moment to self reflect every now and again. Remember moments, good and bad. Feeling emotions is okay to feel. Don't be scared of it. Take a moment to look at the sky. See an airplane in the air. Remember how there were days that there was once nothing in the air and the reason for it. Remember the people that lost their lives that day. Remember the ones that went in to help and especially the ones that never came out. Remember the people that took over a plane to take down terrorists even though they still lost their lives but saved probably hundreds of others. Tragedy makes, breaks, and conforms you. You need help, get it. But don't depend on numbing yourself because that isn't what is going to happen.
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